"you know whats funny? I remember your hilarious sense of humor. I wonder if after 12 years of not seeing each other we would expect each other to be how we were. And would we expect ourselves to be the same? I wonder how I've changed."
That's an excerpt from a conversation I had with my friend Ameena from HS.
I look at myself and I don't think my personality has changed much since 1997. I feel like I am the same 18 yr old kid that walked the stage and joked around.
Obviously I HAVE changed. I'm 30 going on 31, married and a father (hard to believe I know). Here's the kicker, I've barely talked to anyone from my class, and those I HAVE talked to have changed a TON.
So have I changed a ton? Probably, but how? I look relatively the same, minus the long hair/bowl cut. I have tattoos. Significantly less muscle.
I remember being a nice guy. Liking mostly everybody. People liking me as well. But when I think of my friends who I like to catch up with, I think of them then. And I think of me then. When we email and talk though, I hear older people. I hear moms and dads, and grown ups who are only vague shadows of what they were when I knew them? Would we be friends now? Would things end up the same? Would my HS like me enough to make me homecoming king again? Would they accept my sense of humor or my grown-up-ness? Would I accept them?
I am strangely nostalgic, and a little sad at losing my connection with these people. Maybe there's still time to re-connect.
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Interesting thoughts, Honey. I know when I hang out with old high school pals, it's easy to slip into my high school self. My silly personality that's lessened over the years and the insecurities that have been strengthened. Guess I've changed more than I realized, too.
I don't ever want you to change. You're the best thing in my life.
Hey, I heard you hired Justin at Pac Sun. We used to go to church with his family. He's great kid, give him a hard time for me, will ya? :)
Do you have any embarrassing moments? I've started an embarrassing blog, go to my site, read my moment, read others, and post your own. I'm SURE you have some good ones!
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