Houses of the Holy pt. 2

I am easily discouraged.
My bad. I want to be a mighty man of God, but I have come to the sickening realization that a relationship with Father requires effort on my part. I should not expect God to just clean up my messes and make life easy for me if I am not willing to pursue Him back. How ridiculous of me to expect God to follow me around like a little puppy, doing whatever i ask.

I need to make an effort. I WANT to make an effort. I want to find Father and search for Him, so when He pours down like a flood in my life, it will mean that much more.

I want dreams, I want visions, I want to hear His voice. I can feel the rain coming even now. I smell it in the wind. I know Father is moving, and will do good things for me, even if I cannot spend 24 hours a day in the Bible. But I will give Him everything I am, and everything I have is His.

Father, I am Yours.
My heart is Yours,
my mind is Yours,
my life is Yours.
Whatever You want, You have.
Whatever You ask, i'll obey.

Forever.
I want to know You, let Your Spirit overwhelm me, let Your presence overtake my heart.